new chapter...

the bright clothes and shimmering jewellery was not what filled the space of my mind after the engagement ceremony..somewhere something had changed. Infact, alot had changed. A diamond ring wonderfully glided down my finger and shone in all it glory. He stood tall, erect and immaculately dressed in the dull gold attire...the broken front teeth adding the boyish charm to his personna. As someone rightly said, it wasn't about two people coming together but about two families...families from such disparate lives...distinct styles...varied in every aspect...how wonderfully each one trying to capture others words..how pleasingly communicating their thoughts... definately the word secular came alive in every aspect. ' Unity in diversity' so fundamentally ingrained in our constitution couldn't have had a more apt example...a himachali sardarni engaged to a Gujurati jain :)

If someone questions my feelings then....I would be utterly honest in stating that happiness is one shade of it...from worrying about my tossed and tied hair, to the bindi not in the centre, a dress too bright and the stares judging my every move..' how talll she is?' ' our chintu is far more handsome?' ' will she be good for him?' ' is she too confident or too shy?' does she speak much?' ' will her mother- in-law love her?' ' why does a guju need to go out of community?'...i guess questions have a never ending trail...thus creating a muddle of emotions from curiosity to anxiety, from being confident to being shy, from trepidation to joy...

' am i good enough for him?' 'is he the perfect guy?''will he happy and will we live happily ever after?'...these were the macro level questions boucing like basket balls over the court of my mind. And then that hevenly intervention( where you see light at the end of the tunnel) took place...i looked around..there isn't a single perfect person in the world...its about two people coming together and trying to create a perfect life...isn't it?

with hordes of faults and with n number of irritating habbits firmly embedded in me, I cant go around and ask god to bless me with a perfect gentleman...all i can ask for is man with whom I can search happiness...as the new chapter opens in the book of life...it would be insane if I am expecting just red roses ... I am looking forward to this kiddo at heart, sometines totally irritating, tall and handsome, amazingly loving guy who will try to complete me...

for better or for worse...I am engaged to Manan Shah( aka Mr. Ahim Jurry)