Saturday, February 13, 2010

Finding love...

I thought I had lost it all, the evening when the Amaretto swirled in the glass

the eyes roved over the moles and made the lips quiver....

the words half spoken and hanging in the chill air separating us

a streak of infinite joy painting the expanse and rumors doing marry-go-round

the gaze that made heart trot and the world acquired a new shade of red

when the packed bags lay obiediently in the dismal corner

the shards of broken dreams pinched the eyes

uncertain steps lingered at the doorway and a crooked smile settled on his lips

trying to fight back the flush of emotions, through the mist of tears he held on to my face

with buds of love hanging by a thread, the baggage weighed heavy

and the aircarft engines roared tore something within

days went past, upheavels marked the scape of life

love with a dubious veil sat in the lonely corner

the strength , the verdure , the joy came in jolts

but then fell nights of longing, of nothing to hold on to

on the hinges of clout, I fought now

the promise honoured, the smile bequeathed

the wait answered for the journey yet to begin

the moments sparkled, for today I sit recount my journey of love...

Love is in the air and as we search for various ways to express it, we end up raking our brains, consulting friends and surfing the net. Amidst the hullabaloo surrounding the V Day, we lose ourselves to the pursuits. Though most of us think of it as a day to express and connect, we make an assumption of considering it lovers day.
I wish to make a statement when I say I am in love with many. I take the opportunty of valentines day to express my ultmate love for a thing called LIFE. My love for myself is not just a hollow symbol of misplaced narcissism but an expression of joy which I derieve from myself. Believe me that we cannot spread joy or love unless we are in sync with ourselves. Self love is neither self pity nor self indulgence. It is about relishing solo moments, deriving pleasure from solititude and living life to the fullest.
By loving myself, I do not discount my love for few special people in life. It's just that I am able to love them beacuse I love myself......